Blogging as it relates to life

I have a confession to make.  My name is Natalie, and I behave in a negligent manner towards a loved one.  I’m thoughtless and am unkind without remorse.  I demand that this person meet unattainable goals.  I wrongfully believe that this person can meet all the needs without requiring anything.  I tend to put this person down and tell her that she couldn’t possibly be successful at this, that or the other…

I am being mean to me.

Isn’t that just sad?!  Actually, it just makes me mad!  See the issue?  Who am I mad at?  Self-love is not my default…and I would even say self-like may be pushing the envelope.  How does this relate to blogging, this blog…you may ask?  Well, I just spent about thirty minutes rereading old blog posts and enjoying seeing what I’ve been up to since I started up this little project back in August 2012.  I love watching Holden (and us as parents) grow up over time.  I have felt a little sad that I discontinued it over the past few months.  I’ve also felt extremely overwhelmed and like I have no time for anything besides the basics.  Now, this feeling is partially just my personality, but I think I could make a pretty good list of why this feeling is valid (new baby, full-time work, busy family life, daycare craziness, average ups-and-downs of life, etc.).  I’ve pushed aside this outlet to make time and focus on other things.  Important things like feeding humans I love, talking to my extended family on the phone, paying attention to my curious and talkative 5 year old, carrying around a sweet baby who is very partial to her mama, and just general life stuff like tidying up tons of blocks and clean clothes that are piled on the sofa.

The thing is…I’m not sure what to do about it.  I keep telling myself that this is just a season of life!  I’ll have more time for me (hobbies, interests, friends, etc.)when <insert milestone life event here>.  Will I really though?  Will I have a good, long life to explore all the possibilities?  Am I being selfish?  unreasonable?

Things I do know:

  1. I love my children.
  2. I desperately want to follow God’s plan for my life {even though I must be too dense to get the picture sometimes!}.
  3. I am not bionic despite my sister’s ideas.

To conclude this rambling blog post, I’m unsure if I will continue to write in this Internet space.  And I guess it should be enough reason for me to keep doing it if I ENJOY IT (not considering how many “likes” or “hits” it gets.  HOWEVER, I just can’t bear to completely shut it down.  So Happy Friday!  Good grief, that was some heavy thinking!

Natalie

This or That?

Run/Work Out in the Freezing Cold or Heat and Humidity?

I definitely prefer to run/work out in the heat.  I know a lot of people complain about it being just too hot, but for me I just do better in the heat.  Today is a perfect example.  The temps dropped a bit.  Everyone’s enjoying the fallish weather, and I’m wheezing way more than normal on my run.  Something about the moisture in the air is just so much more relaxing for my airways.  I was diagnosed with exercise-induced asthma in high school  I had pills.  Decided not to take them purely for the fact that I dislike pills.  I try to think very consciously about my breathing when I work out and breathing out my nose only….blah blah blah.  It does the trick most the time.  

Washboard Abs or Flat Abs?

Washboard abs!  I love the definition.  Still a work in progress for sure.  I’m quite sure that ice cream did not just help…

Cardio or Strength?

Strength training.  For sure!  I love seeing muscles develop where they weren’t before.

Craving Sweet or Salty?

Usually sweet.  I have dessert almost every night.  It’s usually something small (ramekin of ice cream, greek yogurt with smidge of almond butter, rice cake with almond butter and chocolate morsels sprinkled on top -> deliciousness x10!).

Gym or Home?

I love a gym work out, but sometimes it just isn’t in the cards.  

Frozen Yogurt or Ice Cream?

I prefer frozen yogurt with lots of toppings.  I do get Haagen Dazs to have at home.  I like the richness and quality ingredients.  It’s a small container, but we’re only eating a tad right???

Dessert or Drink?

Some people prefer their treat to be a mixed drink, beer, or glass of wine.  Although I do drink on occasion, I do not see that as an everyday or even once a week treat.  I will definitely choose dessert every time!  

Yoga or Pilates?

Yoga!  I love the peacefulness of it.  My flexibility has definitely increased in the past year as I’ve tried to be more committed to doing just 15 minutes 2 to 3 times per week.

Running:  Treadmill or Outdoors?

Outdoors!

Exercise Classes or Videos?

Videos!  I need quick and easy.  I’m not much of a class girl.  I’m always in a hurry (or so it seems) especially keeping up with Holdie.

Steamed or Roasted Veggies?

Love roasted veggies!  I’m really looking forward to roasting up some fall/winter veggies soon.  We just did broccoli the past couple nights.

Peanut or Almond Butter?

I love both, but I did start to eat more almond butter while pregnant.  It’s better for you and (I read this somewhere no idea where!) better to eat if you’re pregnant especially.  

Morning or Afternoon Work Outs?

Morning ones are best, but I rarely can do those during the week.  I got in a morning run this past Saturday, and it was awesome!  I think the empty stomach is key for me.

Solo or Group Work Outs?

Solo!  I’m moving so fast in the gym to get home to Holdie.  Classes require too much time for me right now.

Weight Machines or Free Weights?

Mostly weight machines.  I feel like I can accomplish what I need to do faster with these (considering the set up of my gym).  However, I do use free weights at home and enjoy the flexibility to create your own work-out.

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Working it out at home…

Protein Shakes or Food with Protein in It?

Food!  I’m definitely not a shake girl.  I like to chew my food!  🙂

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Stir Fry Veggies topped with a Fried Egg